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If you knew/know one or both of your parents, what were/are they like? How did/do they spend their time? (part 2)

My mother is extremely anti-social. She's always fighting with neighbors or people in public. Sometimes for valid reasons, sometimes for very, uh, invalid reasons.
While she's never been diagnosed that I'm aware of, I believe her to suffer from an almost severe emotional/mood disorder. And is prone to some magnificently destructive tantrums. Like, you haven't lived until you've witnessed a 5ft petite lady smash half the plates in the kitchen cabinets then put her tiny hand through a double-paned window and beat a 6'5" 300lb biker with a bloody fist.
My mother obsesses over infancy. She's had a lot of pets over the years, even a pot belly pig, and has treated them like cutesy toys, extensions of her amusement, but once the pet matures she distances herself from it and they soon end up missing/discarded/dead. The same goes for how she's treated her children.
i don't know the details, but I do know, for certain, my mother endured some real-ass, horrific shit growing up.
As for my father, I know of/interacted with even less.
On my 9th birthday my mother took me to chino state penitentiary to meet my dad. it wasn't like a big build-up, or, any. That day she put a button on my shirt that said, 'kiss me it's my birthday' and casually mentioned we were going to visit my 'dad'. Up until that point, I had never thought about the concept of a father. They simply didn't exist to me.
The few times I visited him in prison was more of the same, basically I was told to 'go play' for hours until it was time to leave. Remember him being very disappointed in my anxious awkwardness and obesity.
I lived with him for a couple months but not really. I'm guessing our total time spent together, if counted in minutes, would be 660. Give or take 100.
Outside of prison he shot up heroin, impregnated women and committed armed robbery. inside prison, he made art, got tattoos, smoked cigarettes, wrote letters, fucked men and lied a lot. I think that's what all dudes in prison do though.
Almost certain he's dead now. He was much older than my mom.
I spent more time with my grandmother and great uncle than either of my parents. Which was a whole different type of fun.
Sorry if this was too long of a response. Tried to be brief while still elaborating enough to answer the question.

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If you knew/know one or both of your parents, what were/are they like? How did/do they spend their time?

Going to assume you've already read my lamination colony piece about the first twenty years of my life and want me to expound on my parents.
Growing up, all of my adult relatives seemed to be more like creatures than humans. Like, their existence felt unreal, in relation to me and to themselves. And, apropos to creatures, you never knew what caused them to be hostile or erratic, like, a butterfly could enrage them, or, seemingly nothing, but the understanding that they would endanger your physical/emotional/psychological safety on a frequent basis was guaranteed.
I haven't spent much time with my mother. Even during the times I lived with her, she wasn't around much. She's always working, really fucked up shifts too. Like, 8pm until 7am or a similar bizarre time frame. I'm not sure if it's an escape or if there's a deeper psychological sense of achievement for working so much. She's an RN and for a very long period of time worked in the mental health sector but some shit went down, as they say, and no longer able to do that. She now goes by her middle name and works in the drug rehabilitation sector, which is probably the only subgroup in healthcare more unethical than mental health (maybe).
My mother isn't an evil person. I used to think she was. And, I believe, rightfully so. But as I've gotten older and more understanding of psychology and this fucked reality, I don't anymore. For a long time, though, I hated her intensely, not for what she had done to me, but for her inability to love something that she created, with her body, and released to an unforgiving world of--not trying to be dramatic here, just honest--torment. It's like, the only guarantee you're supposed to have for the first years of your life is the care and protection by what birthed you. It's taken me a long, long time to analyze, understand and accept how the strongest determination in the animal kingdom--a mother's attachment to her child--could be so easily negated.
I disowned her for almost 10 years.
That should give you a decent foundation of her personality without the betrayal of details, I hope.
But, yeah, I don't know. It's difficult to describe her. She was a teenager in the 70's, long hair, always tan, typical cali girl in that respect. My family is very much white trash though. Not like stereotypical southern trash, but poor, white trash all the same.
Growing up the only time we really were together was either eating at restaurants/fast food establishments (she can't cook) or shopping at the mall. Actually, we never shopped together. She'd give me $5 for the arcade then come back 3-4 hours later. And, after my sister was born, i would sit in the sesame street store with her while my mom shopped .
The only hobby/interest I've seen her participate in is building elaborate gingerbread houses. But remember her doing so only for a few years and actually completing just one house. Now, I think she likes the idea of jogging but doesn't jog.

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Why so many crumbs?

Because the convenience of 21st century living has eliminated almost all other avenues of energy expulsion. Every aspect of life has become dumbed down to a button press and the ego is nearly limitless to flourish, like, a bacterial overgrowth.
Everything is a 'joke'--meaning there's no consequence for action--so why care about anything other than snatching 'value' in the most tiny, compromising ways.
In other words, there's no detraction from being a shit weasel, so, let's all be shit weasels, live at home with mom or have dad pay the rent, whine about, like, being crushed by life to our, like, 30 best friends, shop til we drop and mine the internet for egotistical sustenance.
NOM NOM NOM

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Things a woman can say to cause you to feel "unchill"?

My reality doesn't believe in a state of chill/unchill. It's just not something i've ever experienced or believe in. That doesn't mean it's completely non-existent, I'm sure others are able to achieve it.
Since my first memory and every day after that, I've endured a constant state of uneasiness inside of me caused by anxiety, fear, depression, hopelessness, aggression, elation, alienation, existential agony, sexual deviance, hunger, poverty, meaninglessness and pain.
I'm someone who inherently doesn't believe in a middle ground, my brain is wired for nothing or everything and, i think, a state of chill/unchill can only exist in a shallow consciousness, like, in the kiddie pool of thought and emotion.
I've tried to achieve a state of chill by living in very soft and easy locations and positions in life. What i've found is that the uneasiness inside of me surges to scary levels. Without some sort of peril or struggle, I feel trapped and begin to lose my shit. Similar to how a great white is unable to live within captivity and dies because it's more aware of its reality than other, less god-like predatory sharks.
I feel much safer living in a neighborhood where there's homeless people sleeping everywhere, crackheads and schizophrenics roaming around 24/7 and shootings/stabbings/muggings happening at a high rate than a gated neighborhood or a perfectly manicured suburb where everybody knows each other.
I know that's counter to what's socially acceptable but it's how I feel. Middle-class people frighten me. I can't relate at all with most of them and always feel severely alienated whenever I walk outside my apartment door.
I also feel much safer living in an area where there's almost no people and rife with natural dangers, like, cliffs, mountain lions, bears, etc. I think the closest i've ever felt to being 'chill' has been in these types of locales. Probably because being eaten alive by a pack of wolves is a much more honest way of dying than what most all of us are destined for. But that's a personal philosophy.
To more directly answer your question, I have a difficult time talking to most everyone but especially women. Many are, like, perfect victims. What I mean by that is this bullshit society is constructed in such a way to teach women to be weak from a very early age. A lot of women fully embrace their 'weakness' and because of it lack any sort of skill set, determination, muscle memory, heart or personality. Or I guess a more succinct way of saying it is they're void of moxie.
Which makes me really sad because I love women, not the way you're preconceiving, exponentially more than that. But that's why I try to keep a distance and only watch. Otherwise, almost anything said makes me feel empty and hopeless. But, at times, only watching makes me feel empty and hopeless too, but in a different way.

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Do you wear a watch?

I'd rather watch women or nature than time, so, no.
But I really like old russian timepieces, the crazy designs from the seventies--french and italian sort of stuff--and the seiko robot-future shit from the very late seventies into the early eighties.
I think men wear watches to show off wealth, mostly, which is another reason for abstinence.
Sometimes I get an urge to buy/wear one, for aesthetic reasons, but it passes. I've lived at both ends of the rainbow, super poor and upper-middle-class, and realize my instinctive value system is to not become attached to objects, so, spending money on something with no intrinsic value--to me--is silly.
I think the only objects I've been able to (sort of) not lose/forget/lend out permanently/break or destroy have been music, film, art or book related.
I'd rather spend money on people I care about than myself. So doubtful I'll ever buy/wear one.

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What is the meaning of the life in one word?

Envisioned myself raising an arm and softly blowing the stink from my armpit into the face of a person asking this question.

Do you always smile for pictures?

Every time I read one of these qotd I get a knee-jerk reaction that's similar to a crocodile slapping its jaws around the neck of a sleeping pomeranian. I almost never smile for pictures but what does it matter. Like, if i genuinely feel happy and someone is snapping a picture--seems improbable since happiness is spontaneous and ephemeral--then guess what, i'll be smiling in the picture. Otherwise, I just make silly faces since most photography seems fucking silly to me, or, i'll offer a classic 'who is you', which is what my facial expression is 99% of the time, regardless if someone is capturing me with a camera or not. The idea of having a 'good side' or a rehearsed facial posture seems insane to me. Seriously, there's better shit to do than that sort of ego-driven nonsense, like sitting alone in a quiet room and trying to survive your mind. Here's a rare pic of me smiling, because, apparently, it matters, a lot.

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Do you always smile for pictures

What time did you wake up this morning?

I don't believe in 'time.' I really have no clue. It seemed to be mid-day judging by the temperature and position of the sun.

Do you talk to yourself?

Every thought inside my headspace is a conversation I have with myself. If you mean do I talk to myself aloud, then, yeah, but only when i'm really high on some cia grade drugs or having a psychological loss of shit.

Whats your favorite sportswear brand?

You mean, like, what brand of clothing that's intended for athletes but is worn by lazy consumer twats is my favorite? Is 'sportswear' even a real term? I wear dickies shorts. Are those sportswear???

Who sent the last text message you received?

I almost never get text messages or talk on the phone. It was either from baby j or sam 'pink. Hope people don't think this is weird or that i'm lame because I really just want to be liked.

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Alternative answer:
Woke up, felt angry. Walked outside, felt angrier. Went to the supermarket, felt hostile. Tried to find one person that didn't look like another person, failed. Felt like crying. Went home. Thought about death, dying and love.
Wrote this.

What did you do today and what did gena do today? Describe your days in detail (gloss over any and all sexual acts tho plz).

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Well, Gena has been trained to wake me up every morning by *GLOSS*.
After that, she made chicken fried steak in the nude. The silly little thing got hot oil all over her young body so I took her into the shower and washed away the grease with the tips of my fingers, then turned her around and *GLOSS*.
We finished.
She hand dried me with a sponge, then sat on the floor.
I put on a Jackie Gleason record and picked out the day's panties and outfit for her.
Gena changed in and out of the outfit several times per my demand. I told her I wasn't sure if the skirt matched with the top and felt indecisive, but, really, the outfit was perfect, i just thoroughly enjoy watching women dress/undress.
During the previous night, one of the eye hooks I drilled into the ceiling pulled out so we went to home depot to get the supplies to patch the hole/replace it.
Walked down the bathroom aisle and picked up a plunger then pretended to unclog the turd that was Gena's face.
Kept pointing at dark/unkempt spots in the warehouse and saying, that looks like a good place to stash your naked corpse.
While in line to make our purchase I pants'ed her, then turned the other way pretending we didn't know each other.

I laughed a lot.
We got in the car and played a Brian Jonestown Massacre album from her ipod.
I said 'be useful' with eyes widened and motioned an index finger at my crotch, then unzipped my pants.
She leaned over and *GLOSS*.
We went to wholefoods and purchased sub-par smoothies.
I shoplifted a bottle of ginseng.
Gena sat in a booth and drank her smoothie. I sat next to her, slid my hand underneath her skirt, pulled the panties to one side and *GLOSS*.
There was a faint aroma of chocolate in the car as we drove home.
I interrogated Gena and she admitted to sneaking a sweet, something she is not allowed to do.
Gena became very anxious and apologetic, not out of contrition for what she had did, but for fear of the consequences.
I felt upset.
We got home and I instructed her to get in the position.
Gena pulled down her panties, lifted up the skirt, then went ass up/face down on the bed.
Had a mental two-minute debate deciding if I should use the leather belt or the brush handle.
Picked the belt.
Asked Gena in a very stern tone if she was going to continue to break the rules, then slapped the belt across her ass hard enough that it made my ears slightly ring.
Gena said she was very, very sorry.
I slapped the belt across her ass again.
And again.
Gena kept pleading and crying, daddy, please, i'll be good! no more!
I slapped her once more, hard and the sound was like a brick hitting another brick.
She reached both hands back and grabbed swollen ass cheeks.
Her eyes were red and wet with tears, which made me feel excited.
I straddled her face and *GLOSS*.
Cuddled and watched THE HUNTING PARTY on dvd.
Wrote this.

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What makes a person rich?

the ability to profit from other people's naivety/gullibility/weakness without residual feelings of pity/remorse for whatever unethical actions were needed to achieve said monetary gain.

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