Wolf

My ex-girlfriend.
About a month after I took her to the airport to go to college, she calls me and tells me that the reason I couldn't get ahold of her one night is because her phone had died. And that night she got drunk, and ended up in another guy's bed. So we broke up, and my dad found out we did, and he guessed why. Accurately mind you. So she comes home a month later, and me being the big-hearted guy I am, I take her back even though I could have been rid of her forever. We go out to dinner and she takes a pic of me and makes a Facebook post basically saying "Sometimes we get more than we deserve." So the next day we're off to her grandparents' house, she shows me her phone, and my dad left a comment. Basically to the effect of "getting things you don't deserve." Her Asperger's made it difficult for her to realize what my dad was saying (he and I both are like that) and asked me if it was an attack on her. I said yes. Because it was. She demanded I do something about it. I froze, but got dad to agree never to do something like that again. Well she still wasn't happy. So began several months of hell. Like four. In November she found out I was speaking to my friend Mal again (the pretty girl who helped me and Spencer film Wolf Chronicles). She didn't like her because Mal had a crush on me. So she refused to let us hang out if she didn't meet her again. Well, the first time they did is one of the only regrets I have. I wasn't about to repeat that again. Also we were hanging out anyway. Fuck you bitch, fight me. So I told her Mal didn't want to (which wasn't a lie) and she accused me of being a liar by not telling Mal we couldn't hang out if they didn't meet. I told her that I didn't tell Mal that because it made her sound like a controlling bitch. She thanked me. In December I told her I wanted to lessen the frequency of us having sex. Two reasons; I began having anxiety issues that made it feel like I was being stabbed in the heart directly. Like fuck my breastbone that shit was incorporeal. And it was triggered by sex. (I'm ok now) Also I was terrified of becoming a parent. Still am. Especially after the miscarriage we suffered. She laughed at the second one. That hurt. A lot. By that point, I gave up on us. And finally, in January of 2015 I broke up with her.

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For this first part I will be typing my thoughts as I rewatch it.
Noah's first steps onto the boardwalk, as soon as he turns on the night vision, feels like the beginning of a descent into Hell itself. Fitting really.
Noah does what I do all the time, leaving my phone in the car. Then being like, well shit.
That freaking eyeball man. Holy hell. But sweet editing on Adam's part.
The constant looping is very reminiscent of PT. As is the hellish red filter. But is very maddening.
Rikki's laugh, holy shit Rikki's laugh. And the fact that's his actual laugh and it isn't edited disturbs me.
Shout out to the infinite stairs of Mario 64. But in all seriousness that would drive anyone insane.
Rikki is so terrifying and awesome in this video. I'm conflicted. Adam chose his Observer well.
That close up of Adam, you can see the pain and misery in his face. Holy shit.
Observer running up on Noah scared the shit out of me. And Noah yelling I'm free as he falls and Observer laughs made me so sad for him. That falling to his death would be preferred than this.
Hearing Rikki's voice, his actual voice, threw me off. I was like "who the hell is this?" and then seeing his skin tone I literally screamed "Kevin!"
The "hospital". I know we'll come back here. But I wonder what "nurse" he was going after since he walked out the door.
Noah's month of hell has only just begun.

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This part is just my thoughts.
Awesome editing on Adam's part. I can see some parts where it cuts, but really well done.
I can't get over what Noah yelled as he fell. I just can't get over it.
Rikki, holy hell. He is amazing as Observer. I cannot wait to see more of him. Both as Kevin and as Observer. And that laugh. True story, I downloaded the file Adam posted of his laugh, forgot it was in my Windows Media Player, and had it go off when I was listening to music. Scared the piss out of me.
I feel like Observer's trolling and mindfucking with Noah is only going to get worse with these next few vids. Also, I can't help but think Noah saw someone other than Observer here. Because he talked about new and old friends in DTE. I mean, this is The Collective's home. Or at least an extension of it. Why wouldn't he meet someone else?
This is only going to get worse for Noah. And we're all in to the bitter end.

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