Despite going through difficult of the times, I challenge something to myself, That I could go through something like that, And in the end would still survive, because I know it's not the end yet.
I truly appreciate kindness. I appreciate people checking up on me. I appreciate a quick message. I appreciate those who ask if I'm okay. I appreciate every single person in my life who has tried to brighten my days. It's the little things that matter the most.
I hope that someday when I am gone. Someone, somewhere picks up my soul up off these pages, And thinks about the hidden message that I have always tried to convince to the people.
When someone feels down you become everyone else's shoulder to make them feel happy. But, the saddest thing is when you are feeling real down, you look around and realize that there is no shoulder for you. 😪
I know I'll be okay soon and that eventually will work out. I know that what's meant for me will happen, I know. But, I just need a minute or two to pull myself together; the things that has been happening to me since the beginning of 2020 has torn me badly. The people who have been a reason behind my happy moments have somehow left me to balance the heavy load of pain all alone. I will suffer now until my recovery but will get over this soon. I'll be me again! 😩
Currently I am going through the loneliest moment in my life where I am watching my whole world falling apart, and all I can do now is to stare apart blankly.
Me: Depression isn't bothering me. Me: I am depressed, I can not get over it. Me: 2020 is so depressing Me: My love is no more, he's dead. Me: I am motivated Me: Forgets to eat, does not gets any sleep, feels blank almost 90% of the time, does not takes a bath or changes clothes for 8 days. Me: I am all okay! Me: Positive Vibes only! ✌🏻