yes, but only sometimes. in the pale moonlight, i look at the clock. it is only 12 34am. no one is awake, and i sit on my laptop. i wonder about life and its details, the things that make people who they are. i think of my friends, some in different countries, and i wonder about what they do in the mornings when they wake up, when here, i am about to lay my head down and rest. i look at the dishes my sister and i left behind while playing video games and i wonder about why we do this and if i should put it away. of course, in the giant world we live in, some may think that who cares. if i leave my dishes out, i can always clean them tomorrow, but wouldnt it be nicer to do something for someone else? like my mother who is out with her friends right now. i believe she wouldnt like it if i left the dishes out. i like being alone i like to listen to the sound of the ps3 and ps2 whirring and clicking i like the quiet wind that blows on my windows i like to hear my cat wandering the house and walking up and down the stairs like a dumbass i like to go outside when it isnt 19 degrees fahrenheit and look up at the stars and wonder what it would be like to truly be on my own to not rely on anyone no one relying on me no concept of time or money just me on my own. but wouldnt it be better with company? maybe someone that i can chat with someone that likes to be alone someone that likes to hear the sound of old electronics whirring someone that likes the sound of the wind someone that likes to look out at the stars too someone that likes to think it would be nicer with company it might take me years to find that person or that person could be many people many people who like to be alone but think it would be nicer with company yes sometimes its nice to be alone but other time its nice to have company(tl;dr val gets deep at 12 am)