okay so i told you that i wont bother you yes but lol fuck that shit. im not going to leave until you can realize what ive been trying to tell you Look, I don’t give a fuck about what you think about me, the things I’ve done, whatever
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throws to you like wow you dont have all the problems in the world okay so lol and i thought you had a sturdy backbone if you cant take other peoples point of view like this then how on eart can you consider your backbone sturdy enough when yoi cant even handle shit life throws at you
you are sadly a poor excuse for a human being wow. does "sturdy backbone" only extend up to 'not being to handle shit life throws at you'? i'm not going to praise myself with what i've done / what i decided not to say / do and tell you that you really need to grow up. you can't curse / hate /the fuck you're doing rn at someone who abandoned you because you're you. simple as that.
im sorry if you find this offending but omg your caps just make me laugh ok i say whats on my mind thats all ive never been nice and never will i tried sugarcoating my words with cheesy shit even tho i fucking hate sugarcoating and honestly i just find it pathetic b u try to run away from what life
something that's probably a lot better than yours. now i'm writing fics, three weeks ago i was in al ain with some people to do church stuff and in a little while i'm heading out on a retreat with friends. no, i find YOU pathetic. did i do anything to you? NO. did i say anything before this that's remotely offending? NO. i find it (well since we're laying out cards here) PATHETIC how you're going all this way, sugar coating words and going under the false pretext of being someone else just so you could talk to me about WHAT. about shit that doesn't even CONCERN YOU. did i step on your toes? NO. DID I FUCKING BURN YOUR FAMILY? No. you know what, this is a waste of time. i'm not saying this because i give up (god knows this can go on for hours and hours) but i simply have something better to do than throw obscenities at someone who only knows a part of me I DECIDED to show them. you're finally making me remember why i dropped you all in the first place.
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oh and just to clear things up, im not forcing you to change your ways or anything im just making you aware of what i think since i never really got you to be aware of it. thats all. whether you agree or disagree makesno difference in what i think and to my philosopy okay. yeah.
I AM SO done
you the best in life and hope that you make decisions that you wont regret. i have a lot to say but this is the only way i can communicate with you and its not rven private so just. yeah. it was nice while it lasted. i bid you goodbye :)
it's fucking you AGAIn WOULD YOU SHUT UP AND LET ME SPEAK WOULD YOU FUCKING TURN AND LIKE LET ME TALK TO YOU BECAUSE SHIT I TRIED AND YOU KNOW I ONLY TRY ONCE BECAUSE REALLY MY KNEES BUCKLE AND I SHAKE AND I HAVE TO TAKE DEEP BREATHS INSIDE THE CUBICLE BETWEEN BREAKS JUST SO I CAN RELAX MYSELF GOD
Making such a big difference on other people's lives and leaving like nothing happned at all just never felt right you know? I honestly have nothing against you and wish to bid you goodbye with a happy heart and open mind. I just want you to be aware of the effect of your decisions on other people.
i.. okay i've never been this kind of open to other people, but you see. when things in. shit tears shit. okay when things are just going ballistic all around me and i'm sure you know i try to ignore it. well, when everything just feels so wrong i wanted to have some place CONSTANT where i can pretend like nothing ever happened because god fucking damn it. just because i'm feeling bad or like dog poop then it doesnt mean i have to tell anyone else about it. i don't like making people worry over things no one else aside from who's really involved can control. useless fidgeting. i really don't like that. so when i come back from a long absence, i try to act like nothing really happened because WHAT ELSE CAN I DO
oh :( i hope you find the right school then and finally settlr so that you wont trouble yourself anymore. Although i understand your reasons, sometimes, you dont have to face your problems alone. It would be nice if you considered other people's feelings too.
errr, thank you (?) and old habits die hard and i'm sorry but "you dont have to face your problems alone" literally made me cringe for some reason. but i uh, i DO have some people i turn to it's just that i never show anyone the whole picture so they can help me solve little pieces of it, you see? without knowing what the thing really is.
LIEN. I'm the one who wanted the kray one. Post whenever you can. I can wait. :3
JSLADSAL i'm actually kind of excited but okay ;A; i wonder if there's a limit for characters here because i'll c&p nearly all of it.
strip.
yixing knows he isn't innocent anymore.
he knows because yifan undresses him with his sober eyes. no, scratch that. undress would be too light, too vague to describe the agonizing notion yifan does to yixing under gliding neon lights, digging their way to each other's heart with hungry lips and non-stop groans. yifan doesn't undress yixing. he peels yixing off, scar by scar, tissue by tissue until he could trace the bruises yixing acquired from their trainee days and murmur, "i'm sorry you had to keep all these buried inside you. i'm sorry they've grown so blue"
and this is how yixing knows he isn't innocent anymore; when the record scratches and all he could hear is yifan's wrist against his neck, pulse throbbing against pulse, waiting in silence for that moment when their hearts would finally beat in sync.
yifan takes yixing by surprise every time he lies down a field of daisies just to stare at the glowing ball of white hovering out of their reach, dangling playfully across the night sky "look, no matter how intimidating it might seem, the moon will never be able to touch you. it will always be smaller than your thumb and tides are the only thing it can pull" yifan will say.
yixing knows he isn't innocent when he only hears the sound of fabric whispering on yifan's chest like they're sharing a secret yixing isn't meant to find out. but he does anyway, and he shoves logic off like snowflakes on naked branches as he kisses yifan full on the mouth, with such energy and light and force that even the new moon can't compare. this kind of thing, yixing thinks, is enough to drag the whole pacific ocean towards them. but then even the greatest seas can't wash away what yixing and yifan has between them.
yixing gets up one midnight to get himself a glass of water from the kitchen, but discovers yifan's curled figure instead. yifan had been crying, reds oozing out of sleep-laden eyes where tears stream downwards, dripping down to parts of yixing's heart he kept hidden for too long.
and this is how yixing knows he isn't innocent: when he fits yifan's head on the crook of his shoulder and finding it a perfect fit, when yixing breaks his walls just to allow yifan with his mood-swings and manga-like face in.
yixing knows he isn't innocent when he rests his head atop yifan and begins sobbing for everything in yifan's life that he has no control over.
lastly, yixing knows he isn't innocent when yifan snuggles closer to him under the sheets and yixing intertwines their fingers together.
innocence shattered isn't standing naked in front of a man you just fucked, nor is it abusing your body with every harmful substance possible. innocence shattered can be as fragile as the shadow that falls on the apples of yifan's cheeks when he's sleeping.
strip.
yixing knows he isn't innocent anymore.
he knows because yifan undresses him with his sober eyes. no, scratch that. undress would be too light, too vague to describe the agonizing notion yifan does to yixing under gliding neon lights, digging their way to each other's heart with hungry lips and non-stop groans. yifan doesn't undress yixing. he peels yixing off, scar by scar, tissue by tissue until he could trace the bruises yixing acquired from their trainee days and murmur, "i'm sorry you had to keep all these buried inside you. i'm sorry they've grown so blue"
and this is how yixing knows he isn't innocent anymore; when the record scratches and all he could hear is yifan's wrist against his neck, pulse throbbing against pulse, waiting in silence for that moment when their hearts would finally beat in sync.
yifan takes yixing by surprise every time he lies down a field of daisies just to stare at the glowing ball of white hovering out of their reach, dangling playfully across the night sky "look, no matter how intimidating it might seem, the moon will never be able to touch you. it will always be smaller than your thumb and tides are the only thing it can pull" yifan will say.
yixing knows he isn't innocent when he only hears the sound of fabric whispering on yifan's chest like they're sharing a secret yixing isn't meant to find out. but he does anyway, and he shoves logic off like snowflakes on naked branches as he kisses yifan full on the mouth, with such energy and light and force that even the new moon can't compare. this kind of thing, yixing thinks, is enough to drag the whole pacific ocean towards them. but then even the greatest seas can't wash away what yixing and yifan has between them.
yixing gets up one midnight to get himself a glass of water from the kitchen, but discovers yifan's curled figure instead. yifan had been crying, reds oozing out of sleep-laden eyes where tears stream downwards, dripping down to parts of yixing's heart he kept hidden for too long.
and this is how yixing knows he isn't innocent: when he fits yifan's head on the crook of his shoulder and finding it a perfect fit, when yixing breaks his walls just to allow yifan with his mood-swings and manga-like face in.
yixing knows he isn't innocent when he rests his head atop yifan and begins sobbing for everything in yifan's life that he has no control over.
lastly, yixing knows he isn't innocent when yifan snuggles closer to him under the sheets and yixing intertwines their fingers together.
innocence shattered isn't standing naked in front of a man you just fucked, nor is it abusing your body with every harmful substance possible. innocence shattered can be as fragile as the shadow that falls on the apples of yifan's cheeks when he's sleeping.
hehe. its true~ your an inspiration to a lot of people ^_^ but why do you transfer shools a lot? arent you going to miss your current school? ive stalked you for quite a while in asian fanfics hehe ^_^ and inhale desire you classmate right? you seem really close ^_^ anyways fighting author nim~ <3
well the first two transfers was because of my parents' job. the third was because i have to fly to another country (which i'm in rn--uae) and the fourth was because of an argument i had with a verbally-abusive french and the fifth (current one) is because of a personal matter that involved my parents and matters that i don't feel too comfortable sharing with others online, especially since i'm not a really open person in real life (?) i mean i'm cool and all but i don't like shoving the limelight on myself and my issues. and thank you! thanks for your time tho...
Hi lien! I'm a big fan of you since Mr. Blue lips ^_^ Your my inspiration to become a better writer and you made me feel that nothing is impossible especially when i knew that english isnt your parent tongue~ Anyways, i just wanted to know in what grade you are now/in the upcoming school year thanks
can i keep this forever and screenshot and print and frame it and show it off to my future grandkids ;A; it's kinda weird (in a sense that HOW DID I BECOME AN INSPIRATION) and uplifting becaise (I AM AN INSPIRATION HOW?>!?) and no problem ;}
right now, i'm two years away from college and i should have been one year away from college except that i stopped 1 yr because curriculum and school transfer issues. (i transfer schools a lot and i'm going to transfer again this year) ;-; but HOPEFULLY /crossed fingers/ the school i'm going to move to will let me take an acceleration test or something to skip a year :)
right now, i'm two years away from college and i should have been one year away from college except that i stopped 1 yr because curriculum and school transfer issues. (i transfer schools a lot and i'm going to transfer again this year) ;-; but HOPEFULLY /crossed fingers/ the school i'm going to move to will let me take an acceleration test or something to skip a year :)
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LIEN~ Write about Kray on "the loss of innocence" in a romantic mood. :3
omg i already finished writing it! ;A; would you like to read it here or wait for tomorrow as i try to type in other prompts and all ;A; then off to lj~
hola...lien.i have some question for you...
go on! I'll answer anything :)
HOLA DO YOU CHINESE.
HEY I WISH I CAN CHINESE BUT THE ONLY CHI WORD I KNOW is "pigu" which i assume means butts and that's saying a lot about me :)
hi tHIS iS pLUmb3r kR3aZZeee i h3aRD THeRE izZZz a L3AK iN uR pAntszzzs??? ahehheehhehieuehehehui hi wifeu
yes wifeu can you go down and fix it for me hehehehehe before it drips everywhere because u know hindi yan pwede kay enrile ;-;
Call me
Beep me
If you wanna reach me
Doesnt matter when
Doesnt matter where
/sing it with me
Call me
Beep me
If you wanna reach me
Doesnt matter when
Doesnt matter where
/sing it with me
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Do you enjoy wearing belts
sadly, no. the only kind of "belt" i use is that brown, thin rope thingy and i only use it as an accessory for a white dress ;-; it kinda annoys me when i have to unlock all of satan's 379420 locks and the da vinci code when i'm in the bathroom.
I've read in one of your blog posts in AFF that you don't like clingy people and you don't seem close with people in real life. Why is that?
well. okay. i LIKE making friends and i LIKE having friends and assuming you know me in real life, then i guess it's just me. first off, clingy people. i mean i don't think they're clingy and i'm actually quite happy they enjoy my company but no. not to the extent that i'd give up my alone-time for someone else. i'm happy with helping people / listening to their problems but i don't like talking about my own (well, i do talk about my problems but only to selected individuals who i think, have been through what i'm going through). i really feel suffocated when someone is too close i mean who likes not having little secrets of their own? i don't appreciate people who knows a lot of things about me. it makes me uneasy and i LIKE feeling that i have some control on who i befriend / don't befriend and all :)
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Oh well because I criticized your endings once on Twitter a bit too harshly, so that's sorry on my part. Anyways I think you're a great writer with a lot of potential, just hope you'd be less surprising with endings. It's good to be inventive but not too inventive.
oh. i haven't seen it (i think, if it regarded endings).. err would it be okay if you tell me where to find it or would that be asking for too much? thank you, i really appreciate that and i'll try to control myself. hehehe. but thanks for taking your time to tell me :)
Why can't you take it when people give you criticism about your stories? You've got good plots but need to do better with endings. It's not like you're not a good writer.
oh okay. i'm going to be as polite as possible and tell you that uh, i never really got much criticism (?) i mean, if i did then i would have remembered it. i can take criticism, heck i welcome criticism (grammar errors, spelling mistake etc) and try to improve my stories every single time and i say thnk you because there are a lot of areas i know i'm lacking. so if someone had tood me i need to do better with endings then i probably would take that in mind and be careful next time. this whole question shouldn't offend me and it doesn't offend me that you mentioned i could do better with endings. i mean thank you, i'll keep that in mind and be careful. it's just that well. ... i kind of don't appreciate anyone saying that i can't take criticism because god knows i have a sturdy backbone. anyway, wow this one just took me by surprise but thank you for pointing it out :) have a good day! :)
Who is your best friend/closest friend in real life?
Dr. Kim Kai
http://www.gizoogle.net/ search ur url omggg
OMG SO LIKE I TRIED AND I SEARCHED MY WRITING COMM. AND thank you now i'm in tears now because the summaries of my fics are so bad asss and thug oh my god i love you thank you so much ;-;
What's your all time favourite book and exactly why?
It probably has to be... oh god this is so hard. can i pick two? i love sidney Sheldon's if tomorrow comes and lauren oliver's before i fall. If tomorrow comes is action, and it's quick paced and a fun read. It's about teo con artists fighting each other and roaming around the world, stealing stuff awesomely and end up falling in love. I love the characterization and the humor involved. As for before i fall, it's a story about a girl who dies and gets to keep living THE SAME DAY again and again until she -learns her lesson, -falls in love with the right person again and again, -dies a meaningful death :)
Do you ship any hetereo pairings? If yes, who are they and why?
not anymore (?) i mean i'm too blinded by all the gay that it's come to the point where het doesn't feel right~
how did you know that was me
how can i not
I laff you
thank you. i laff me too~
I is beautiful & u is pitiful
rissa if this is u go away
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