If you had to change your name, what would you change it to?
I've actually been considering changing my last name to my mother's maiden name, van etten ? I was blessed to be given the perfect first and middle names so I can't imagine myself going by anything different, but my last name is,,,,,quite a mess.
I really connect to my mom's side of my family more; they've always been people that I could look up to and strive to be while my dad's side is a bunch of racist, overly religious people who couldn't care less about their kids and are extremely loud and rude.
my dad's parents constantly mix my brother and I up and they don't care enough to know who I am or what my interests are. in all honesty, I feel like my grandparents don't care about my dad, my brother, and I at all, and they only talk to my mom to get free gifts and money from her. my aunts, uncles, and cousins are doted on by my grandparents while we're always just an afterthought. we always have been and always will be just the 'others'.
I also lost a beautiful person to my grandparents' wrongdoings so I don't think I can ever forgive them and hold their name proudly. I miss my uncle every single day. he deserved so much better and I wish I could have been there for him before it was too late. I can't associate myself with the cruel people who hurt him and ostracized him for his entire life tbh, that just isn't right imo.
I miss my mom's family dearly and I regret not valuing them more while they were still here. they were country folks who grew up knowing how to be kind to everyone and accepting of differences, something you'd think they weren't with the stereotypes associated with people living in rural areas during the early 1900s. very supportive of all races, all cultures, all genders, and all sexualities. they had very little so they valued what they had, and they would never abandon their kids like my dad's parents did. I want to hold their name high and be one of them, I don't want the last name I have right now.
plus van etten is way cooler than foster anyways LOL.
I really connect to my mom's side of my family more; they've always been people that I could look up to and strive to be while my dad's side is a bunch of racist, overly religious people who couldn't care less about their kids and are extremely loud and rude.
my dad's parents constantly mix my brother and I up and they don't care enough to know who I am or what my interests are. in all honesty, I feel like my grandparents don't care about my dad, my brother, and I at all, and they only talk to my mom to get free gifts and money from her. my aunts, uncles, and cousins are doted on by my grandparents while we're always just an afterthought. we always have been and always will be just the 'others'.
I also lost a beautiful person to my grandparents' wrongdoings so I don't think I can ever forgive them and hold their name proudly. I miss my uncle every single day. he deserved so much better and I wish I could have been there for him before it was too late. I can't associate myself with the cruel people who hurt him and ostracized him for his entire life tbh, that just isn't right imo.
I miss my mom's family dearly and I regret not valuing them more while they were still here. they were country folks who grew up knowing how to be kind to everyone and accepting of differences, something you'd think they weren't with the stereotypes associated with people living in rural areas during the early 1900s. very supportive of all races, all cultures, all genders, and all sexualities. they had very little so they valued what they had, and they would never abandon their kids like my dad's parents did. I want to hold their name high and be one of them, I don't want the last name I have right now.
plus van etten is way cooler than foster anyways LOL.
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